I would like to say, Happy New Year to all. But to be honest, as I think about it, I havent had a good New Years (as in New Years Eve), since 1999 (that would be 99 into 2000.) I had to work the next day that year, but I didnt give a fuck and I had a blast. Since then I have not had a good NYE since that time. It depresses me, and being here in this fucking hell hole where I am not going out cause of a fucking curfew and B) I am stuck in this fucking shitty ass place. This very well may be the year that I chew on the lead bullet. My whole life has gone to shit since that year and to be honest I dont see things getting better. I see nothing but dark days ahead the rest of the way. And to be honest. Fuck that. I would rather be dead than face that shit. I know this all sounds whiny, but fuck it, it is my blog and I will write what I want. I havent made a good decision regarding my life since that time frame and things DO NOT get better. In spite of all that people will say "ohhh you are down now, etc." I see that it is all over. That there is nothing else.

To all have a Happy New Year, and I honestly hope that all your wishes come true. It is the least I can do for people since nothing has gone right for me.

FIN.