I have fucked up something good in the last 48 hours. I have gotten into a fight with a good friend, and I dont know what I said. I had drunk IM convo's and dont know what I said nor did. I feel like my world is collapsing and spinning out of control and that nothing good is going to come out of it. I feel absolutly awful about the fight I cant even recall. I have tried to call and apologize, but being drunk is not an excuse. I feel like I cant do anything right anymore and that something terrible is going to happen to me soon. I dont know. If whoever I was talking to on the phone last night reads this just know I am sorry if I was a dick. That is all. I am going to go crawl up on my couch now and allow my anxiety and worries overwhelm me.