An letter to that person:
You know what. I am not the Balrog of Morgoth. You start conversations as if you are the Chesire Cat with a big deceptive grin. When I ignore you, you give the whole guilt trip of "ohhhh you treated me like shit for those years!!" and also say "why dont you put that up on your blog". You know what I am. And I am doing it cause I know ya read it.
Since I met you you were blaming all sorts of people and places on your problems. Now you are blaming them on me! Yes I was shitty to you and I was totally fucked up. But you also did lie to me about those things. And you want me to just forget those things as if they are nothing?? How about all those times you went driving off with ex's. Am I that fucking stupid? I can read between the lines. When you are with someone and they go driving off with an ex, that is a very bad sign and a good clue that there is some fucking aroudnd going on. If ya lied to me about the whole 'miscarriage' thing, whats to say you werent lying about the story of your ex trying to attack you to take advantage of you. And yes I was a fucking dope to just sit there and take it. And as for that whole shit of "...I was terrified to tell you about the abortion cause I feared you." That is a fucking horse shit excuse and you know it and I know it too. You needed someone to clutch onto cause your family wouldnt have been able to do it for you. And I was in a bad vulnerable position to think that I could do it. Also speaking of blaming things, do you remember what you said to my mother when I wasnt talking to you around Oct-Nov '01?? You said you were acting that way cause of 9/11!! Were you insane?!?! Did you think that fucking horseshit would fly with her?? She was pissed at you for that shit!! We had enough to deal with everything else going with John and Greg and you threw that shit at us?!?!
Just remember that the next time you IM me thinking all things are cool. Cause maybe I am tired of your manipulative shit. I got sick of it by the second year and that is why I acted like the witch king, I cant take back the past and only learn from it. But you know what, it would be greatly appreciated if you would just lose my addy forever. You are never going to be over things and I certainly havent on certain things either. But I have moved on. You know what I am convinced you only talked to me to try and instill guilt, and I have attoned for my ways. Maybe not in your eyes. Nothing was ever good enough for you so maybe that is why you feel the way that you do. I never put these things up cause I was getting over that episode, but ya know what fuck it. Eat my ass with a spoon!!
You know what. I am not the Balrog of Morgoth. You start conversations as if you are the Chesire Cat with a big deceptive grin. When I ignore you, you give the whole guilt trip of "ohhhh you treated me like shit for those years!!" and also say "why dont you put that up on your blog". You know what I am. And I am doing it cause I know ya read it.
Since I met you you were blaming all sorts of people and places on your problems. Now you are blaming them on me! Yes I was shitty to you and I was totally fucked up. But you also did lie to me about those things. And you want me to just forget those things as if they are nothing?? How about all those times you went driving off with ex's. Am I that fucking stupid? I can read between the lines. When you are with someone and they go driving off with an ex, that is a very bad sign and a good clue that there is some fucking aroudnd going on. If ya lied to me about the whole 'miscarriage' thing, whats to say you werent lying about the story of your ex trying to attack you to take advantage of you. And yes I was a fucking dope to just sit there and take it. And as for that whole shit of "...I was terrified to tell you about the abortion cause I feared you." That is a fucking horse shit excuse and you know it and I know it too. You needed someone to clutch onto cause your family wouldnt have been able to do it for you. And I was in a bad vulnerable position to think that I could do it. Also speaking of blaming things, do you remember what you said to my mother when I wasnt talking to you around Oct-Nov '01?? You said you were acting that way cause of 9/11!! Were you insane?!?! Did you think that fucking horseshit would fly with her?? She was pissed at you for that shit!! We had enough to deal with everything else going with John and Greg and you threw that shit at us?!?!
Just remember that the next time you IM me thinking all things are cool. Cause maybe I am tired of your manipulative shit. I got sick of it by the second year and that is why I acted like the witch king, I cant take back the past and only learn from it. But you know what, it would be greatly appreciated if you would just lose my addy forever. You are never going to be over things and I certainly havent on certain things either. But I have moved on. You know what I am convinced you only talked to me to try and instill guilt, and I have attoned for my ways. Maybe not in your eyes. Nothing was ever good enough for you so maybe that is why you feel the way that you do. I never put these things up cause I was getting over that episode, but ya know what fuck it. Eat my ass with a spoon!!
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